but I won't. Feeling really shitty about my excursion to Re:FUSE last night.
Actually, 40 Watt Hype is a great band, and I would love to go if they were playing at a club somewhere.
I was making myself go alone so that I might have a chance of talking to someone, approaching a stranger and striking up a conversation. I just ended up feeling like the weird girl who was there by herself. Some quotes from my note taking, I warn you they are maudlin:
"If I go back to the status quo of what I did before I started this, what would be so bad? 33, single, living with family, friends that love me..."
"At least when I wasn't going out, I didn't feel bad about myself in this way."
"What if it's really just me? What if e-Harmony is right and I am among the 20% of people who can not be matched?"
"What if you try your hardest and still nobody wants you?"
Went to youtube and found a happy song video that sums up how I feel today.