How exactly do you enjoy getting dressed and living when it is 107 degrees outside? I love this new top and skirt, but you might notice that my face is looking a little bedraggled. That is from having just finished 'Mockingjay' by Suzanne Collins. It's the third in the 'Hunger Games' series, and just devastated me. I love young adult fiction that tells it like it is, no covering up the feelings when you lose someone, no easy answers to complicated questions, just honest human interaction. These books are brilliant, you must read them.
My apartment looks deceptively clean behind me! hahahaha
If you haven't noticed, I'm taking a turn on this blog. I'll be talking about my life in general, food, fashion, all kinds of things. I hope that you all, my faithful few readers, will stick with me while I figure myself out here.
I've been trying to make a effort to look good everyday, but with the heat that we've had it's been a challenge. This pic is from the end of the day, after I pulled my hair up to cook, after I took out my earrings and took off my sandals. This top is an old faithful and I hit myself for not purchasing it in five or six colors.
Shorts: Lane Bryant
Tonight's dinner is my favorite easy recipe - Taco Soup. I make variations of this depending on what I have in my cabinets. Tonight I made it with Ground Turkey, but usually it's beef. And, yes, that is a glass of Kool-Aid.
1 pound Ground Beef or Turkey
1 packet Taco Seasoning
1 packet Ranch Dressing Mix
1 can Diced Tomatoes
1 can Kidney Beans
1 can Lima and/or Black Beans
1 can Whole Corn Kernels
1 can Sliced Carrots
Brown the meat in deep pot, sometimes I will caramelize some onions first and then add the meat to cook, drain oil off then add both seasoning packets. At this point I like to add about an half cup of wine or Balsamic Vinegar, but it's not necessary. Reduce liquids. Add all other ingredients, with the water in their cans. Bring to a boil. Turn down heat and let simmer for about 30 minutes. I sometimes add pasta. This can easily be done in the Crock Pot and it is delicious!
Ohh, the uselessness of an alarm that I can easily sleep through. Yesterday started in a rush, when I woke up to the realization that I had been sleeping through the alarm by about 30 minutes. My hairs didn't get washed, since I knew I was headed to a haircut that night anyway, but I was also feeling super uninspired by my closet. I am officially starting another shopping ban, so it's all about remixing for the rest of 2010. This top is one of those things that I can throw on and get complimented on all day. I actually have no idea why, but it's super soft and comfy in the heat.
Top - Lane Bryant
Jeans - Lane Bryant
Pink Chucks - JCPenneys
I must find someone to take pics for me so that I can stop doing to in the mirror style ones.
One of the many joys of living on my own is getting to cook. Or rather, not having to cook, and not having to justify my food choices to anyone else. Tonight, after attending Pecha Kucha at Starline, I came home and fixed myself a fried bologna sandwich.
Yum, look at that fried bologna deliciousness!
I also adore my newly organized pantry cabinet ---->
Hello all! I've been going through a lot the last couple of months and have missed getting to share here. I think I'll just jump back in the deep end.
I have been a resident of Fresno for just about five months now. I love living in Fresno! Love it. I will never understand people that complain about where they live. If I am bored with my city, I think that it is my responsibilty to create or find something to do. As my grandmother used to say 'Boring people get bored', and that is not me. I love that I can walk my neighborhood, go to Twee Boutique on Friday afternoon and craft with the girls there, find a friend at one of the bars in walking distance any night of the week, and that there is live music every night within an eight block radius. Living on my own has been great. I clean when I feel like it, which is never, but nobody else has to live in my sloppy house. It does get lonely and sometimes, even if I force myself to get out and socialize, I still feel I'm missing out on something.
Friends, I've never really had a long term romantic relationship. Sure, I've had guys that I dated for a few months, but never an honest-to-god, I could spend my life with this person, relationship. It's frustrating and humiliating in a way that I think few people can relate to. For the last ten or so years I've thought 'What is wrong with me?' I certainly don't have the romantic notions of one person for everyone, that I had as a little girl and teenager, but I do believe that it should be possible to find someone that thinks I'm tolerable. That being said, I do have pretty set opinions, and am not willing to settle for someone that I don't feel tugged towards.
So Kelly's and Stacy's mom (Kelly and Stacy are friends from high school and Encore Theatre days) is getting certified as a life coach. She needs to get hours together with clients before she can be certified, so I'm going to be one of her guinea pigs. There is, of course, a minor issue in the opening questionnaire. It asks questions like 'What would you like to get out of this experience?' or 'How do you want to grow?'. To which I say, I don't know, that's why I signed up for life coaching. I don't know what I want. Heck, I barely know what I want to wear each day, and clothing is something in my life I actually actively engage with. I'll keep you updated on this front, I might even ask for help from a few of you.
Speaking of help, I need a full time job. If anybody knows of someone that is hiring, please let me know. Thanks all!
After much thought and soul searching I have officially decided to shutter The Date Project. It seems that maybe it wasn't such a good idea after all, since all I have managed to do is hurt other people and myself in the process.
I will be blogging on my Belles and Whistles blog again and will continue to talk about clothes, guys and life in general, only in a much looser fashion.
Thank you to everyone for the love, support and input, and for taking this crazy journey with me, it's been truly life altering.
It's certainly been awhile. I am officially a resident of Fresno, and my little apartment is looking really cute so far. I've been a busy girl, going from working at Laura's to rehearsal to Rogue volunteer meetings and back to Tulare to get more stuff from the family. My parents have been super cool, providing me with everything I needed to get going in my new home, and grandma gave me so many groceries, I won't have to go shopping for at least a month.
Unfortunately, no dates. Actually, my friends, I have a confession, I have begun a relationship. Sort of. You may remember ARN that I went out with on New Year's Day. I wasn't sure how I felt about him, and frankly, he lives in Oregon at the moment, so I wasn't expecting anything to happen, but it has. We started talking online, on the phone, texting and it just escalated. It's still nothing official, and I'm frankly freaked out by it's advancement. Feeling slightly crazy about that.
Sorry friends for not posting for over a week. I am moving this week, and I get my keys on Monday. I'm so excited! I can not wait to get up there, I've spent the last couple of days going through boxes of stuff that I have in storage trying to figure out what is absolutely necessary to my life. There's not much storage in my new place, so I have to be very picky about what is an absolute must. I'll get some pictures of the process of the move up so that you can enjoy it with me, then I'll have everyone over for a big bowl of soup.
As most of you know, I am an obsessive reader; I tend to plow through a stack of books the way my dogs eat leftovers. This obsession has transferred itself to the web recently and I have been asked by several friends to send some links to my favorite sites. In that spirit I present you with the list of websites and blogs that I check on a semi-regular basis (honestly, daily, I am in stalker territory with some of these bloggers).
This blog is the first one I started following, and she's hilarious. Her husband's blog is also sublime.
When I feel sad about the world I go to PostSecret, and I always give these books as gifts. Love it! I'd love to figure out a way to get Frank Warren to speak here in the valley.
This artist takes the most stunningly colorful pictures. I just want to fall into her world.
Over at Mighty Girl I think anything is possible, and if it can be done Ms. Mason will figure out how to do it. The most inspiring thing is her Mighty Life List, all of the things that she wants to do in her lifetime.
To find out what's going on in Fresno I go here, here, or here.
I don't know why but The Sartorialist and his girlfriend Garance are photogs that I follow like a bloodhound. I get so disappointed when they haven't posted new pic for a few days.
I was really liking this Picture Fresno blog, but they haven't posted in a while, so I'm afraid they've given up. :(
There's never enough time in the day, right? Except here I am, at 2:23pm, sitting in my office, a stack of incoming bills sitting to my left, and I am writing a blog post. What I really want to talk about, though, is the fact that, although I now have a apartment rented in Fresno, I can not move into it until mid-February, and the time between then and now seems an eternity. The days have gotten longer, the hours pass slower. Are you aware of this phenomenon?
A few years back, at the end of my tour with MCT, I felt like the last week, in Gilroy, would never end. The Wednesday of that week I went to visit my friends in the bay area and on the way back to Gilroy nearly turned east on Hwy 152 to drive home. It was only three hours away - but three days in MCT time. What was also stretching the time was my planned trip to NOLA with Nicole and Brooke. I felt like it would never come, and yet on the trip it felt like we didn't have enough time to get to everything.
Time is currently playing lots of tricks on me. I need to find a job in the next month, in order to be able to sustain myself in Fresno, and it seems like I've been job hunting forever. I need to pack my belongings so that I am ready for the move, but I keep telling myself, 'Oh, I've got plenty of time'. It doesn't help that I am a confirmed procrastinator.
Enough about that, how cute is this picture of Karen R., myself and my mom with Love And Theft, from KJUG's Jingle Jam concert this Dec.? They signed my guitar! You can't tell from the picture, but my outfit was super cute, always with the red.
The fact that I am surrounded by highly intelligent people for the majority of my life is one of the things that has made life fun in the past few years. I have exceptional friends. My exceptional friends are also caring and generous and occasionally overwhelm me, in good ways and bad. Luckily they are astute enough to know when my eyes are crossed with advice, and it is no longer sinking in. Also, I wouldn't be sharing my experiences, if I didn't want help and advice.
That being said, I am developing my own philosophy about dating, along the lines of my new take on my wardrobe. I do love clothes, after all. Here it is: If you try someone on, someone that everyone thinks is a perfect fit, even if you see that they are a perfect fit, but they just don't suit you, put them back on the rack. You will regret taking them home, and if they are still on the market, they have the chance to get picked up by someone that truly fits, and so do you. In love as in fashion, if you don't absolutely love it, you'll never wear it.
Thank you friends for your advice! I truly treasure it. Keep it coming.
I will endeavor this year to be more honest with you, my faithful readers, with the people I interact with, and more importantly, with myself. To that end, I have decided to tell you my reactions to Saturday night, at the risk of embarrassing myself. What have I got to lose, I embarrass myself on a daily basis anyway, right?
Alright, so Saturday night, after Rocky was over, I headed to Starline to hang with ARN. I was really looking forward to it, cause I'd had such a great time the night before. On the way into the Grill I stopped to give SM a hug and kiss, but he stopped me, not wanting to give ARN any wrong impression of our relationship. Which, come to think of it, is increasingly weird. The Grill was packed with people, and ARN was sitting with Jag and Brooke, having a drink. We should have gotten out of there, should have made for a quieter place, but we didn't. The Rocky cast descended on the Grill as well, in full costume, which really made it hard to talk and get to know each other further. I was exhausted, and falling asleep in the booth, but trying valiantly to stay in tune with the flow of conversation. Anyone who has been around me in this state of mind can tell you that I get vague, make strange references to things unconnected to the convo, and generally give people reason to be concerned, so at 1:30am I called it a night. ARN walked me to my car and like a perfect gentleman stood five feet away! Am I crazy? He could have tried to kiss me, that's where I thought it was going. Once again I have misread some signals somewhere.
ARN is back at school now-far, far way, so I won't be around him for at least two months, but hopefully, even after this post, he will keep in touch and we can try a do-over.
2010 has already started out well. Thursday night, after a surprisingly fantastic run of Rocky, I joined HP and Jag at the grill for the turn of the year. Whilst chatting with them, they mentioned Jag's friend (I'll call him ARN) that would be joining us for a drink. HP declares that we are the male and female version of each other, which I find intriguing, and a little bit scary. ARN joins us and is funny, charming and pretty cute, so I, towards the end of the night, awkwardly ask how long he is in town and if he would like to go out the next night. With some help from HP*, we set a time and place to meet, exchange phone numbers and promises to be there the next night. I have a date! On Jan. 1st! An auspicious start to the year.
*Really, I wouldn't have ended up being able to set a time and date. I am intially confident, but my follow through sucks.
So last night we met in front of a strangely closed Starline and headed west on Olive. Neither of us, making the date at the last minute, had planned anything, so we decided to walk Olive and see what struck us. ARN is a theatre grad student, so we had plenty to talk about, including mutual friends. He knows a director that I worked with 6 years ago. Totally random. We had dinner at Sequoia Brewing and then headed over to Manchester to see Sherlock Holmes. I ended the date after the movie, only because I had to drive home and be at work this morning at 9am, but I encouraged him to call me, facebook me, email me, whatever. What do you know, he added me on the FB and we are meeting up again tonight after Rocky.
No pictures of my outfit, but I was looking pretty cute. Black tights, black denim pencil skirt, red turtleneck sweater, black chucks, and my giant blue shell earrings.
I am having some regrets that I didn't mention that he would be the subject of this post. Still on the fence about letting people know that I will be sharing these details with a small selection of readers. What do you think? And, ARN, if you happen to read this, any impressions you'd like to share?